To trust or not to trust

I really do not understand why the people is not capable of seeing the truth, realizing about something so obvious that is some time ridiculous the way they act, but it does not matter how much time do you observe humanity, how much time do you dedicate to study the way the humans act, the way they think or the path of reason that they choose, there are some people that just keep on going and surprise your understanding way beyond the expected,  due to my personality, my way of being and the education that I received from pop’s, I do firmly believe that the lack of trust is one of the biggest mistakes that a person can commit to offend me, to hurt me or to bring me down, even though I do my best to prove with facts that I am reliable, even if I break myself to give more and more to the people I do care about, sometimes one of them just runs against what I believe and provide my person with an overdose of non-trust treatment, going with disgust against me, letting me know that they do not trust in me anymore, disregarding all the past actions, due it seems that just one action is necessary for a lot of people to think that I am the must unreliable person in the freaking universe, exaggerating? May be, but that’s the way it makes me feel. 

So then,  sometimes also happen that after that mistrust attack, they in some way realize that they fucked it all up, and a bunch of bullshit, that they don’t even let explain, so they come back trying to apology, and what happen, that they expect for you to say “hey, no problem dude sometimes shit happens”, but what if, and just what if I DON’T WANT TO FORGET YOUR INMENSE STUPIDITY , WHAT IF SIMPLY I DON’T WANT TO STAN THIS BULLCRAP THAT YOU GENERATED DUE TO YOUR LACK OF TRUST AND BRAIN?, WHAT IF YOU HAD TO REALIZE THAT YOU ACTED LIKE AN ASSHOLE BEFORE ALL OF THIS?....... but of course, I have to swallow my proud in a painful way and act like the grown up guy……..

So then, people does not change if they don’t want to, and they usually do not want to……. So based on this observation, I can say to the people that inspired me for this today, YOU CAN ALL GO AHEAD AND FUCK YOURSELVES, YOU DO NOT WANT ME NEAR YOU ANY MORE, SO BE IT ASSHOLES IF YOU REALIZE WHAT YOU DID LATER ON AS THE TIMES GO BY, DO NOT EXPECT A WARM WELCOME BACK, BUT A KICK IN THE BALLS.

Aprender a volar

Hoy tengo ganas de aprender a volar, pues no quiero seguir escuchando tus palabras, quiero levantar mi peso en el aire y alejarme de ti, pues la mayoría de tus acciones nunca coincidieron con tus palabras, todo el cariño que decías tenerme, todo el afecto y el amor, se va derrumbando poco a poco gracias a que a ti te gusta imponer tu voluntad sobre mí, ya que no eres capaz de respetarme ni como hombre, ni como persona, y a veces, ni como un ser vivo, a veces me das a entender que soy para ti solo un ser vegetativo que puede proveerte con lo que necesitas en el momento y en todos los momentos que así lo requieres.

No se cómo es posible que un ser así exista, que alguien solo tome lo que le conviene de una persona dispuesta a darlo todo para que alguien como tu este complacida, y orgullosa, cosa que está de más decir, nunca pasara, ya que jamás es esfuerzo suficiente, logro grande o meta alcanzada lo que te importa, si no que no fuiste tú la persona que lo logro, y es tu deber pisotear a el sujeto de logro ya que así, su victoria no le dará fuerza para dejarle ver el tipo de vampiro psíquico que llegas a ser.

No creo que este realmente bien escribir algo como esto, ya que al final, sé que tú, y todas las personas que son de la misma calaña, son expertos en el arte de olvidar todo el daño que han causado, y se enfocan solo en patéticos remedos de excusas para que los demás crean que su actitud hipócrita y destructiva tiene realmente una justificación, una razón de ser por la cual nadie tiene derecho a juzgar o tachar su conducta como dañina, pero al final, como siempre escribo esto para liberar una pequeña parte de mi alma, esa parte que aun arde con deseos de venganza, la parte realmente obscura de mi ser que desea un pago por todo lo que causaron dentro de mí,  afortunadamente logro controlar esos deseos insanos de vendetta y logro apaciguar mi ser escribiendo este tipo de cosas, para que a las pocas personas a las que les interesa hechas un pequeño vistazo en el interior de todo el caos que llamo alma, puedan saber qué tipo de cosas me han dañado, que me a alegrado el día en los peores momentos, y de qué manera seres como ustedes me han dejado sangrando de muerte en el suelo sin cuidado alguno, sin piedad, y solo esperando a que me recupere para poder obtener más.

Hoy quiero tener alas y levantar el vuelo, para llegar a un lugar en el que criaturas como ustedes jamás lograrían alcanzarme, surcar el cielo lleno de libertad y belleza, tocar las acuosas nubes y poder verlo todo desde arriba, para así convencerme de que la podrida parte del mundo que ustedes representan no es la única, convencerme aún mas de que todo el daño que ustedes causan no es ni remotamente comparable con la hermosura que contiene este mundo, y que aunque sean pocas las personas a las que realmente les importo, ver como esas personas son visibles incluso desde el cielo inmenso, y que la escoria mundana que ustedes representan, tiene tan poca importancia, que no la vería ni aun que estuviera de pie a mi lado.

What a lie can do

And so for today, we came to the permanent division of the road, in which we need to choose between the right path or the easy way, the lie, or the truth, but there are cases like one that not only hits me in this moment but to some people that I appreciate, we are trying to seek the truth, but there are others trying to hide this from every body, taking decisions  for every single person without consulting, and creating chaotic situations for all the members of a team.

So then, they also expect for the whole team to be like little lambs following a dog that lead us in to the unknown, waiting for us to fall behind them, I really feel sad watching how this people think that the others are ignorant to their situation or plans, thinking that they can hide something as big as the sun with a paper sheet, believing that everybody believes in them without questions or doubts…..

Well, I guess this is all that I have to say today, I really do not like to talk about people that lie, or that hide information from other under their own convenience, I think that’s despicable, dishonorable and also lame….. very lame.

Unfairness

Unfairness, the real definition of unfairness is the following: injustice by virtue of not conforming with rules or standards, but how can you determine what is or what is not unfair if the rule or group of rules affect more than one individual just to be fair with one single person, for a little example, if a person is working under a standard, and then the team have to support the work of that person, then the team will be evaluated based on the criteria that is used to evaluate that person, even if they are making it to support the person and to help the company, also, if the task of that person takes more time for the entire team due they are not use to this job, and also, they are working on a goal, taking in count the time that it takes for the people to get to that goal, would be fair to change the rule for the entire team or instead keep on with the regular rule, even if this affects the production of the team and ergo the production of the campaign, which part will be fair to change, which one will be the correct decision, in this case, I think that I am not capable of taking a fair judgment due I will watch for the interest of the majority,  I always think that taking a decision just because you consider it correct it will be always unfair, due you are not taking in count the responsibilities, interests or ways that you can affect the other parts implicated on the decision.

So, pretty much, I’m just trying to take away from me this horrible sense of justice that has been always with me, due may be my justice is not just for all, or may be my way of justice is not convenient for the interests of those who they to make me think in a different way, but in this case I would like to point out a different definition, a totally different word, which applies in every single ambit of the existence, math’s, physics, art,  etc….. KARMA: The total effect of a person's actions and conduct during the successive phases of the person's existence, regarded as determining the person's destiny.

So please be aware of this concept, due is the only one that really accomplish every single aspect of the definition, does not matter which intentions did you have or the purpose per se you will get the total effect of your actions one day, does not matter if the effect will be beneficial, or if it will get you to your annihilation.

A howl for all of you my friends………..

Remember remember the 5th of November

Due today is the 5^th of November, I would like to get a little bit political with this, what it seems to be lie entries of my personal diary, or some way to escape the horrible reality in which me and the ones that I loved are stocked in some way.

I would like to make a point that right now, the situation of this country (Mexico for the people that may read this and do not know me) is being drained by a troop of political vampires that do possess no   moral rules or even a moral education, they do not know any type of rights, respect or selflessness which I may say is essential to a charge like the one the hold. Instead of that we have to stand, and sometimes accept all of the abuse that they are capable of create watching under their own shellfish and empty needs and whims.

Basically, criminals sustaining bigger criminals, which we can say, don’t care about anything else but money to have more power than the one they already have.  The most interesting thing to say, is that the so called revolutionary people just mess with the regular people, they try to change by any mean (or at least by some of the most radical means) to change the mind of people that do not show any interest in the matter, please don’t get this wrong,  I’m not trying to say that this has any importance on our lives, but that the so call change will not occurred if the “revolutionary people” affect the regular people, if you need any example, just turn your head a little bit and watch at all of the marches which purpose is to make the people understand an idea, but the only achievement they have is creating chaos, and disorder due they block principal streets and avenues   of the city so the regular people can not arrive to work in order to earn money to feed themselves or their families, or they create some times unrest situations in the street’s so the government can grant them some attentions, in which case they just achieve to have place themselves on an outlaw picture in which is not only a benefit for the government  , but is lethal for them due people is not going to trust to some one that has a self-created criminal profile.

So based on the information (that is placed under my own perspective) offered here, I really think that first of all, the revolutionary faction must change the plan of action, due affecting the people itself and not the government they are just loosing territory on peoples mind, so they really need a better tactic if they want to really start a change on this situation, also, they need to realize the real power that the so called “enemy” possess, they have an almost unlimited amount of money, the perfect and infallible machine for brainwashing, the ability to block the real information, and the most important and dreaded of all, the power to restrain education at any level, because one of the most if not the biggest advantage that they have is people without education, and not only that, but without the desire for further education in which case there is no idea, no movement and no human, inhuman or divine power on the universe that will change the way of existence of a non-willing person due the apathy is the most dangerous menace for every person, and the most powerful ally for any oppressor, so, even if this is not the real motive, I would like to place down here, the words that inspire me today to write this little text: